I am spending the day with Aiden and Everett - Everett is my 4 1/2 month old nephew whom I adore. I am however, having flashbacks and wondering how I actually took care of my three guys when they were 5 years and under! I have lamented lately that I think babyhood was easier for me ~ I understood my more clearly defined role as the provider of all food, nourishment, protection and safety. Babyhood for me was a no-brainer, I was rarely hit with a situation I couldn't navigate. I'm not saying I was a baby guru or an infant whisperer ~ I just understand babies. My own boys in particular.
While I still agree that for me the decisions and day to day tasks of raising my baby boys came easier to me than the tasks I have at hand today with my "bigger boys" - I am fairly sure I blocked out how much physical presence is actually required to care for an infant. Granted ~ when my boys were fussy it was mimis that fixed everything and I can not breast feed Everett so I am at a slight disadvantage concerning my resources in being able to soothe thim. I am also not his mommy and that more certainly plays a role in his reaction to the different environment today. But still, I had forgotten how physically taxing a baby truly is.
I'm still not sure I wouldn't trade my boys in for their former babyselves from time to time ~ sometimes the tasking work of rocking and snuggling, cuddling and comforting seems much more appealing than the argumentative, challenging, frustrating concerns of parenthood that I'm swimming in now. Maybe all I'd really like is to be in control of something or someone from time to time these days .... hmmm ... something to ponder.
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